the only living boy in new york.

california- where dreams are made

i haven’t written here for over 2 months. so much has changed and yet still so much is the same. i am falling deeper (or was this past week) into my depression. the last time i was this bad was three years ago, my freshman year spring semester. although i’m functioning (mostly), i’m avoiding my … Continue reading

It’s a grand time to be living

This weekend I’m struggling to keep up with finals and my coursework, my job at the mall, and my job at the campus newspaper. I’m dropping the ball everywhere and all I can manage to do is fuck everything up and make everyone’s life difficult. I don’t know how people manage to balance everything. I’m … Continue reading

The Clarity a Cup of Coffee Brings

It’s really crazy  just how much can change in a year. I turned 22 last Friday. I feel like just last year, I was 20 and somehow skipped being 21. Years keep crawling on. Every year I get older, it seems unreal that I’m still living. I feel more grown up now. My priorities are … Continue reading

“So I sip his drink as I hold his gaze”

“When we erupt in to the room And hear the sub go boom A feeling easy to resume This right here I swear will end too soon So I sink in to the tune As I inhale the fume A feeling easy to resume This right here I swear will end to soon” – Katy … Continue reading

Musings on Age: Aging Gracefully

I was talking with my roommate, J the other day. “Sometimes I wish I was thirty already,” I told her. “Me too!” she had exclaimed. Colour me shocked. Who in their right mind actually wants to be… ‘old’? Growing up in our culture, society puts such an emphasis on age. Being young is the best … Continue reading