love the questions; live everything

pressure, pressure, pressure seems to be the theme of the week i can’t keep up with all these expectations people have of me all the things i need to do for other people all the things i need to do for myself it’s all piling up around me and i feel like i’m drowning i … Continue reading

the only living boy in new york.

california- where dreams are made

i haven’t written here for over 2 months. so much has changed and yet still so much is the same. i am falling deeper (or was this past week) into my depression. the last time i was this bad was three years ago, my freshman year spring semester. although i’m functioning (mostly), i’m avoiding my … Continue reading

It’s a grand time to be living

This weekend I’m struggling to keep up with finals and my coursework, my job at the mall, and my job at the campus newspaper. I’m dropping the ball everywhere and all I can manage to do is fuck everything up and make everyone’s life difficult. I don’t know how people manage to balance everything. I’m … Continue reading

Let’s Dance All Night

I don’t know where this semester went. Where do any semesters go? Time flies by faster each year, although days are still as long as ever. Am I a better person after this semester? Is my life more like what I want it to be? Have I learned anything? I really wish the answer to … Continue reading

Reminiscence of a Car Crash(ed) and What’s Left After

I can’t really think that well right now; my head is still a bit shaken up right now. It’s hard to find the right words to explain how I’m feeling. Tonight was the first time I’ve been in a car accident. And I totaled my car. The front end, completely crumpled. I haven’t been able … Continue reading

The Clarity a Cup of Coffee Brings

It’s really crazy  just how much can change in a year. I turned 22 last Friday. I feel like just last year, I was 20 and somehow skipped being 21. Years keep crawling on. Every year I get older, it seems unreal that I’m still living. I feel more grown up now. My priorities are … Continue reading

“Am I free or am I tied up?”

My dog snores.

– Animal by Miike Snow I am tired. I feel a heaviness all around me. It’s days like these that I wish I could be happy & grateful for all that I have. But it’s especially difficult today. I am scared of moving forward. I move into a new place tomorrow. And I am terrified. … Continue reading

Living in the Land of People

It’s easy to get caught up in the details of your own particular situation. And it’s even easier to comment on another’s situation when you don’t have the whole story. Who ever has the whole story though? Do you even know the whole story of what situation you’re in? How do you view the facts … Continue reading

“And It Feels Like I Am Just Too Close To Love You”

“And it feels like I am just too close to love you There’s nothing I can really say I can’t lie no more I can’t hide no more Got to be true to myself And it feels like I am just too close to love you So I’ll be on my way” -Too Close by … Continue reading

“Way Back On The Radio Dial, The Fire Got Lit Inside A Bright-Eyed Child”

“Some dreams stay with you forever, Drag you around but bring you back to where you were Some dreams keep on gettin’ better, Gotta keep believin’ if you wanna know for sure Oh, I can hear em playin’ I can hear the ringin’ of a beat up ol’ guitar Oh, I can hear em singin’, … Continue reading