a matter of imaginary formalities; make a good impression

seconds, minutes, days tick by and it seems as if things are getting better and worse all at once had an appt with a therapist yesterday morning kind of put me in a funk for the rest of the day having someone else confirm what i’ve suspected all along is a hard truth to bear … Continue reading

always unfinished

awake at 2am and here i am, alone with my thoughts.i never thought the first time i visited a mental health facility would be for someone other than me. (perhaps i believe i am crazier than i truly am)still… it was surreal being there for a friendplaces like that, hospitals, that is, are completely sterileyour … Continue reading

figure 8

With everything in my life that I’m messing up and keep messing up, I don’t know what to do anymore. My depression has taken hold of my mind and body and getting rid of my critical thoughts seems to be impossible. My time management is completely off. I don’t know how to get my assignments … Continue reading

like breathing was easy

After hanging out with a guy for a few weeks, I found myself in a relationship with him. Everything was basically perfect. We get each other so well, our weirdness matches so amazingly, and we both have a lot in common with our career ambitions and hobbies we like to pursue. A week and a … Continue reading

the only living boy in new york.

california- where dreams are made

i haven’t written here for over 2 months. so much has changed and yet still so much is the same. i am falling deeper (or was this past week) into my depression. the last time i was this bad was three years ago, my freshman year spring semester. although i’m functioning (mostly), i’m avoiding my … Continue reading